Duncan is hosting Patients for a Moment this month, and he asks us how we recharge. Well, Duncan, funny that you should ask. I just got home from a whirlwind weekend of visiting family, attending a wedding, and seeing some old friends. Right before that, I just finished a whole semester of working really, really hard to try to satiate the ravenous lion only to wind up leaving my graduate program. Oh, and to top it all off, I’m battling massive inflammation of unknown origins; after the last specialist told me that she was SO glad I was responsible and came in to see her, then she capped the exam by telling me to go home and “be well”. (Ummm, yeah, I think Dr. Bryan was right when he said, Well, if only it was that easy.)

So apparently, I have been charged to “be well” and all I feel like is being trapped under a mattress (or 500). There are a million things I could be doing like applying for jobs or doing laundry (or updating this blog or reading my own email!), but I just don’t feel like it.

iPhone 3GS Low Battery
except my battery has about -5% remaining

I’ve decided that I need to take a week off. A week where I do nothing. So far it’s been interesting. I’m not sure that I’m getting better. But, the key thing here is that I’m not getting worse either. And in the world of vicious circles of downward spiraling symptoms, that is a MAJOR accomplishment.

Some of my friends have come over to visit me. They’ve brought food and presents and fun stories. But mostly I’ve just tried desperately not to fall asleep when they’re here. Diana even came and watched a movie with me, and I wound up laying down on the futon through almost all of it.

It’s hard not to do anything. But I’ve decided that in order to recharge, I need to stop doing stuff. Just say no, so to speak. Just roll over and keep sleeping. And not feel guilty for not doing anything. All the stuff I normally do to recharge? Have friends over, write letters, work on crafts, play the piano….. Yeah, I don’t have the energy for those either.

After all, someone called me yesterday about a credit card application. After about 30 seconds of me trying to think and failing miserably, I just told him to nix the application. I was so glad it wasn’t someone following up on a job application. Because I would have probably told them the same thing. And when a girl gets like that, it doesn’t matter what things are on her to-do list. Recharging gets priority. Because this girl has been running on empty for far too long.

Abigail

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